The love is the injury in the end
See you for the first time, it is so tall that you wear the military uniform! From that time, I know I can not escape!
See I divided with him in your the night! It is not that I am fickle in love, really come to like you.
The next day,look for I you,say it is accompany me not to be relieved boredom to want you,
You take me to that highest mountain of yours by bike, the scenery is very good.
Hold you from the back, kindhearted and dim.
Unless ones that go we mountaintop temple, go celestial being valley of we, it go,
Only we two on the road, just as only belonging to us in that place.
While going down the hill, you still ride very slowly on purpose, you see me with the rear-view mirror, you and I make a noise!
Later on I said that I wanted to eat, you also walked several 5 kilometers to hire a car, went to buy food for me.
You will phone me everyday, will send messages.
You will surf the Net everyday, say " I want to see you,
Later on,
I have given all what I can give you to you
It is known that you say I correctly well, I take it seriously!
Time is on a little past, your Luan, I felt too.
Just I thought only you are busy
Often comfort and can do by myself well, you no longer phone me, say when not surfing the Net again " I will see you,
My heart is in a little break-up
The tears burn the face
Later,
When I cry in a complete mess, love when not standing, send it to you
"Let's say good-bye! This to make you gentle 30 jin, this to say to you --I love you "
In 20 days,whose name is on the net in you or say have a chat generally before picture,
I say first " we divide into, you agree even " only
You no longer speak
Later on you phone to say you drank too much, spat blood.
It is not true that I know
But I have gone
I know, I or escaping
You hold me, I get rid of
In fact, arms to hate to leave you on how it is in I,
I have stayed for you again
You have left, return to homeland!
But you have never phoned
You have written out " J I love you in your space forever "! "
I know, I or having you
So I have sent the last message to you "
I find, watch over, live one like how is one's own person stupid thing until now "
See you for the first time, it is so tall that you wear the military uniform! From that time, I know I can not escape!
See I divided with him in your the night! It is not that I am fickle in love, really come to like you.
The next day,look for I you,say it is accompany me not to be relieved boredom to want you,
You take me to that highest mountain of yours by bike, the scenery is very good.
Hold you from the back, kindhearted and dim.
Unless ones that go we mountaintop temple, go celestial being valley of we, it go,
Only we two on the road, just as only belonging to us in that place.
While going down the hill, you still ride very slowly on purpose, you see me with the rear-view mirror, you and I make a noise!
Later on I said that I wanted to eat, you also walked several 5 kilometers to hire a car, went to buy food for me.
You will phone me everyday, will send messages.
You will surf the Net everyday, say " I want to see you,
Later on,
I have given all what I can give you to you
It is known that you say I correctly well, I take it seriously!
Time is on a little past, your Luan, I felt too.
Just I thought only you are busy
Often comfort and can do by myself well, you no longer phone me, say when not surfing the Net again " I will see you,
My heart is in a little break-up
The tears burn the face
Later,
When I cry in a complete mess, love when not standing, send it to you
"Let's say good-bye! This to make you gentle 30 jin, this to say to you --I love you "
In 20 days,whose name is on the net in you or say have a chat generally before picture,
I say first " we divide into, you agree even " only
You no longer speak
Later on you phone to say you drank too much, spat blood.
It is not true that I know
But I have gone
I know, I or escaping
You hold me, I get rid of
In fact, arms to hate to leave you on how it is in I,
I have stayed for you again
You have left, return to homeland!
But you have never phoned
You have written out " J I love you in your space forever "! "
I know, I or having you
So I have sent the last message to you "
I find, watch over, live one like how is one's own person stupid thing until now "
publié par 810girl
Chapter six
Just in agony ten thousand of the border of Joe, but the weight enters spring in life.
Since spring, let a hundred flowers blossom naturally, fragrance curls up. The weight, on so unconsciously ignorant happiness. Just as is she to saying, is this loving on Joe's letter? Look like this kind of people of hers, read and try the spring scenery in human world best obviously, however, she has never seen the real look in spring.
Her adolescence has not begun to be already been over yet, the love in the heart of young girl's weight died. She is to the man, more than true feelings are revealed to join in the fun on occasion, the experience these years tells her, no matter how gracefully the other side talk about, from artistic to from music to poem, from Picasso to Chopin to Shakespeare, there is only a purpose finally, go to bed with you. Love, is only brutish nature and god mixing, its essence is tragic. The brutish nature drives people to seek the satisfaction of carnal desire, the god drives people to pursue indefectible holy and pure beauty, the love attempts to unite the two from a concrete opposite sex, how insecure however, this kind is unified.
Practise and already understand these a lot theories about the love with the theory with young weight, do not know whether it is good fortune or unfortunate or not. Not having it in day of grandmother and Joe, she lies at home alone alone at night, smoking, study, sometimes and the man is touching. No matter blowing and raining, she to produce stand stopped by neither wind nor rain, this really makes people very obscure.
Since the second day to borrow the book, Chen HaoDong became the frequent visitor, he brings a book every day, sit and read aside quietly, help her to sell fruits too sometimes. Until he consider worth doing, reach indistinct to have, feel to him this have long course too correctly at first weight. Hands, the hands of the east of Chen Hao, always let her remember what it is, that night many years ago, night when she never forgot in the whole life. Sometimes, hand to stare at him, she dull, she want such one feeling that hand stroke, the feeling at that time? Two people are dawdling in one day and one day, there is little speech, he neither says that likes her, she does not say anything either. But a kind of tender feeling separates the paper of one - storeyed window to flowing between men and women in these.
Until one day, one often lets the man of the weight come in the past, happen to be great to help the weight to accept the stand in the east, have come to home of the weight too. The man has seen the east greatly, first stupefied, subsequently, are blowing whistle in the mouth scornfully, as great too picks up a book to read in front of the weight bed the east. Two man everyone remain silent, atmosphere awkward embarrassed, after the weight comes in, have no idea too for the moment, felt laughable again later. Several times of that man's dry cough, in fact a word has not been seen either, great to the east, concentrate one's attention angrily unoccupiedly, the southeast northwester that in charge of him, it is too towering to move since. The man sat a moment later, saw the meaning not leaving in the east greatly, went to the courtyard, call the name of the weight on the outside.
The weight, come out, there is the thing that looks for you.
The weight uses the nail clippers to have a manicure, does not move.
The men have let on the outside several times. The weight has been moaned for several times from the nose, plan to walk out wrenching the waist.
Sit down, reticent great east speak suddenly.
Does not hear the weight, she looks at later, finds it great in the east and has not resumed. She takes the step and plans to go out again, has also heard the sound in the east greatly.
Sit down. She hears this time, the sound sends out from the great east mouth.
Sit down, don't move, there is a kind of deterrent force not speaking clearly inside that sound, the weight can't help going backwards several steps, but knocks into the east and falls in the east in the heart as there is a fawning.
Why? You? Her voice pretends to be scorned to take even a glance at.
Nothing is needed, according to me, great to put down the books in the east, stare at her with a pair of bright eyes.
The man has also called on the outside for several times, see no one come out, a few words of scolding of the informal low voice, shameless, loose woman, has put up the small white face.
Weight get what is the matter, great the east abandon the books suddenly, go out at the door like a lion yet, facing toward that man and wave all over the fist. His movements are very fast, hit the man so that several stagger, drop on the ground quickly. The weight has been sent out " Ah " Sound.
You dare to scold her one sentence and try again! It is forced down the sound and said that great in the east.
The man is sealing the mouth, has climbed up from the ground, has spat a mouthful of saliva fiercely. He wants to fight back, but scared by the great cold in the east's eyes, he does not dare to make a sound, have walked gloomily.
Great to stop being so large for a moment in the courtyard in the east, he seemed lonely and lonely suddenly, he neither entered the room, nor went out. The weight puts on a smile in the heart, call him loudly, comes in quickly, help me to select the fruit.
Great to bow into the room in the east, the weight has scolded his one sentence ruthlessly, bear kind.
The man is in love, the daughter has the intention, two men and women stay together, but mention this question of the love, but the weight is avoided. Each time, Chen HaoDong helps her to tidy up the stand, gets back to home, sits for a moment, sometimes two people embrace and kiss, but Chen HaoDong never cuts the subject. Leave each time, he is resolute and firm, will never leave a little leeway gently, it seems that he is really " The willow makes the favor " So so. At the beginning, still hold the attitude of laughing at to his leaving somebody at large the better to apprehend him with weight, but time is long, she finds, those men that she has associated different from the past of his, he really likes her, encourage her.
One day, she holds the door wanted to take in the east oldly and greatly, eyes are looking at him stupefiedly and stupefiedly directly, say like the order.
Don't walk, leave tonight.
Great to stay in the east, no way.
What? Dislike and avoid me?
Ear pendant, you give, say what shout, dislike and avoid you, HaoDong Chen serious, read she straight directly, the weight has but not had languages for the moment.
She gets out of the way the health of stopping him, as if the child injured, sits and gets back to that dirty and short and small bed quietly. Great to cast a look at her later in the east, went straight over suddenly, held her face to kiss furiously.
Then turn round to leave again.
In fact old and great must not really know nothing about the going through in the past of the weight in the east, he is the past to accept her when sympathizes with. One had no girl who father without mothered, the only interdependent grandmother passed away early too. Life and environment force her into that kind of person, however, have sagacity in her eyes, she has beautiful physique, it is sympathetic that she has with life and a beautiful one. The problem is, what is she waiting for or looking for? She herself does not know this question either. So, glamour a little that this is much more or less on her. A kind of unconscious one, difficult to catch, the beauty that can't be expressed. This is not completely from her language, but from the beautiful human body of her intelligence, to knit the brows one smile, behavior of her, eyes, expression, posture, movement, smile that seem lost in thought at the face of her express she.
In a word, have said so much, it is fascinated by the weight in the east that it is a word, old and great. Weakness on love human nature, he once in this pieces of evil spirit,it shake off either for the moment.
Just in agony ten thousand of the border of Joe, but the weight enters spring in life.
Since spring, let a hundred flowers blossom naturally, fragrance curls up. The weight, on so unconsciously ignorant happiness. Just as is she to saying, is this loving on Joe's letter? Look like this kind of people of hers, read and try the spring scenery in human world best obviously, however, she has never seen the real look in spring.
Her adolescence has not begun to be already been over yet, the love in the heart of young girl's weight died. She is to the man, more than true feelings are revealed to join in the fun on occasion, the experience these years tells her, no matter how gracefully the other side talk about, from artistic to from music to poem, from Picasso to Chopin to Shakespeare, there is only a purpose finally, go to bed with you. Love, is only brutish nature and god mixing, its essence is tragic. The brutish nature drives people to seek the satisfaction of carnal desire, the god drives people to pursue indefectible holy and pure beauty, the love attempts to unite the two from a concrete opposite sex, how insecure however, this kind is unified.
Practise and already understand these a lot theories about the love with the theory with young weight, do not know whether it is good fortune or unfortunate or not. Not having it in day of grandmother and Joe, she lies at home alone alone at night, smoking, study, sometimes and the man is touching. No matter blowing and raining, she to produce stand stopped by neither wind nor rain, this really makes people very obscure.
Since the second day to borrow the book, Chen HaoDong became the frequent visitor, he brings a book every day, sit and read aside quietly, help her to sell fruits too sometimes. Until he consider worth doing, reach indistinct to have, feel to him this have long course too correctly at first weight. Hands, the hands of the east of Chen Hao, always let her remember what it is, that night many years ago, night when she never forgot in the whole life. Sometimes, hand to stare at him, she dull, she want such one feeling that hand stroke, the feeling at that time? Two people are dawdling in one day and one day, there is little speech, he neither says that likes her, she does not say anything either. But a kind of tender feeling separates the paper of one - storeyed window to flowing between men and women in these.
Until one day, one often lets the man of the weight come in the past, happen to be great to help the weight to accept the stand in the east, have come to home of the weight too. The man has seen the east greatly, first stupefied, subsequently, are blowing whistle in the mouth scornfully, as great too picks up a book to read in front of the weight bed the east. Two man everyone remain silent, atmosphere awkward embarrassed, after the weight comes in, have no idea too for the moment, felt laughable again later. Several times of that man's dry cough, in fact a word has not been seen either, great to the east, concentrate one's attention angrily unoccupiedly, the southeast northwester that in charge of him, it is too towering to move since. The man sat a moment later, saw the meaning not leaving in the east greatly, went to the courtyard, call the name of the weight on the outside.
The weight, come out, there is the thing that looks for you.
The weight uses the nail clippers to have a manicure, does not move.
The men have let on the outside several times. The weight has been moaned for several times from the nose, plan to walk out wrenching the waist.
Sit down, reticent great east speak suddenly.
Does not hear the weight, she looks at later, finds it great in the east and has not resumed. She takes the step and plans to go out again, has also heard the sound in the east greatly.
Sit down. She hears this time, the sound sends out from the great east mouth.
Sit down, don't move, there is a kind of deterrent force not speaking clearly inside that sound, the weight can't help going backwards several steps, but knocks into the east and falls in the east in the heart as there is a fawning.
Why? You? Her voice pretends to be scorned to take even a glance at.
Nothing is needed, according to me, great to put down the books in the east, stare at her with a pair of bright eyes.
The man has also called on the outside for several times, see no one come out, a few words of scolding of the informal low voice, shameless, loose woman, has put up the small white face.
Weight get what is the matter, great the east abandon the books suddenly, go out at the door like a lion yet, facing toward that man and wave all over the fist. His movements are very fast, hit the man so that several stagger, drop on the ground quickly. The weight has been sent out " Ah " Sound.
You dare to scold her one sentence and try again! It is forced down the sound and said that great in the east.
The man is sealing the mouth, has climbed up from the ground, has spat a mouthful of saliva fiercely. He wants to fight back, but scared by the great cold in the east's eyes, he does not dare to make a sound, have walked gloomily.
Great to stop being so large for a moment in the courtyard in the east, he seemed lonely and lonely suddenly, he neither entered the room, nor went out. The weight puts on a smile in the heart, call him loudly, comes in quickly, help me to select the fruit.
Great to bow into the room in the east, the weight has scolded his one sentence ruthlessly, bear kind.
The man is in love, the daughter has the intention, two men and women stay together, but mention this question of the love, but the weight is avoided. Each time, Chen HaoDong helps her to tidy up the stand, gets back to home, sits for a moment, sometimes two people embrace and kiss, but Chen HaoDong never cuts the subject. Leave each time, he is resolute and firm, will never leave a little leeway gently, it seems that he is really " The willow makes the favor " So so. At the beginning, still hold the attitude of laughing at to his leaving somebody at large the better to apprehend him with weight, but time is long, she finds, those men that she has associated different from the past of his, he really likes her, encourage her.
One day, she holds the door wanted to take in the east oldly and greatly, eyes are looking at him stupefiedly and stupefiedly directly, say like the order.
Don't walk, leave tonight.
Great to stay in the east, no way.
What? Dislike and avoid me?
Ear pendant, you give, say what shout, dislike and avoid you, HaoDong Chen serious, read she straight directly, the weight has but not had languages for the moment.
She gets out of the way the health of stopping him, as if the child injured, sits and gets back to that dirty and short and small bed quietly. Great to cast a look at her later in the east, went straight over suddenly, held her face to kiss furiously.
Then turn round to leave again.
In fact old and great must not really know nothing about the going through in the past of the weight in the east, he is the past to accept her when sympathizes with. One had no girl who father without mothered, the only interdependent grandmother passed away early too. Life and environment force her into that kind of person, however, have sagacity in her eyes, she has beautiful physique, it is sympathetic that she has with life and a beautiful one. The problem is, what is she waiting for or looking for? She herself does not know this question either. So, glamour a little that this is much more or less on her. A kind of unconscious one, difficult to catch, the beauty that can't be expressed. This is not completely from her language, but from the beautiful human body of her intelligence, to knit the brows one smile, behavior of her, eyes, expression, posture, movement, smile that seem lost in thought at the face of her express she.
In a word, have said so much, it is fascinated by the weight in the east that it is a word, old and great. Weakness on love human nature, he once in this pieces of evil spirit,it shake off either for the moment.
publié par 810girl
Chapter five
Weight during half a year, write with ten letters in succession for Joe continuously, the zhuizi tells Joe, she has fallen in love.
On the first letter, the weight was said, Joe, has not been knowing all the time that still can love oneself, yes, Joe, does not really know! Just that kind of feeling should love, with a boy every day, sell fruits, look at pedestrians, read, I feel till the end of the world. Joe, do you know? How gentle his hand is, his hands reach the inner world that can touch me softly. Joe, unexpectedly I will fall in love with others too.
But? Joe, is this loving?
Second letter, weight say Joe, look for one man love, facing toward you old fashioned and inflexible books those always quickly. He hangs on at my side everyday, I will let him melt soon, well, really have no way! Joe, I have not faced a man like this for a long time. Do you say, have I really fallen in love with him? Just, the way of our emotion is a bit rugged now, Joe, this blames me, perhaps look like this kind of people of mine, should not get the love! Why your letter in reply say nothing about this question of mine. A bad fellow of yours, envy me.
From receive, behind the letter, have no class, Joe make oneself bored to in dormitory, cover with the higher authority with quilt, remain silent with everyone.
Joe is in this kind of state. The love question of the weight, she is avoiding being frightened again, can not getting one's own true idea more and more. She wants to let the weight be happy, fears again the weight really falls into a man. The man, for the man, are there still few hardships that the weight is eaten?
A familiar traditional Chinese medicine flavor has been bored in from her nose, wheel in her brain for a long time, can not get rid of. That is traditional Chinese medicine that a weight has been drunk, that summer, how many times was she once to carry that bowl of wicked decoctions of medicinal ingredients in front of the weight, saw her painful drinking down, or vomited in front of the bed suddenly. Without that time, the weight, perhaps as her, in the campus of the university, accept schoolboys and admire the sight admired, but not sell fruits on the lane mouth while studying. Certainly, all these are the way that herself chose, no one is strange.
But, is this her true idea?
In this school, how outstanding though Joe's good looks can not be said, still some boys write the love letter!, court her, but Joe but one's own parcel is tight. No one see heart of her, she more and more reticent, though she restrained in these kind, in boys' view, a little more attractive. Just, Joe can't be close to any man, so long as smell that kind of taste that can not say on one's body of theirs, she has a kind of strong sick sense. She knows such disagreeable source.
Qiao house of houses are crowded, she and elder brothers crowd in an one-storey house. Slightly bigger, she go weight house live in previous night, compared with elder brother being bad smell to coax coaxing the place smell, she prefers the weight taste very sweetly on one's body, the every minute when like staying with weight. But in mother's view, such a thing dreadful monsters general, mother refuse she and contact of weight.
Joe clear to remember 13 that year such as year old such as she, were woken by a burst of sounds suddenly at midnight. She hear neighbor in bed eldest brother send out strange sound, grit one's teeth, puff and blow, puff and blow, seem, breathe heavily thick air, what she worried has called it, brother, brother. The eldest brother has not responded, just no longer moan. The next day, she helped mothers to wash the clothes, the eldest brother ha to play and throw to her and embrace the clothes, then and the friend has played. Joe has just spread the clothes out, smell taste of a whiff of smelling of urine, that is sent out on the sheet given from the elder brother to her, Joe sees, white slice that one hardens is like a clown making up on the sheet, making the hollow laugh of mouth to her. Joe puts the sheet on the nose to smell, taste is just spread from here out. She has remembered the content going to school in physiological hygiene, what is unexpected insight, throw away the sheet at once, go on one side and vomit.
From then on, Joe hated smelling the stink that boy's body was sent out, that kind of taste further, make her sick. Have one man exceed two meters from her, she has that kind to react, sick agony. As to she this, weight make fun of her straight.
In time when the grandmother had just passed away, she persuaded mothers to keep with the weight company, two girls often crowd together, hear girl's characterized fragrance on one's body of the weight, let her heart full of unspeakable happiness.
The weight, after I have left, what will you do alone? This leaves the family to study for the first night, she is with weight, lie in bed seeing the moon in the sky.
I want to sell fruits too, the weight is said.
Really? You are not afraid of toil.
I'm afraid something, I hope to experience it, how the grandmother is to bring me up, the weight is said faintly.
Joe, thank you, weight caught her hands suddenly.
What is thanked! Joe is a bit shy, smoke one's own hands with strength.
Thank you for never disliking and avoiding me, really, sometimes I dislike and avoid oneself.
Don't say so, the fool, only I know, how good you are, Joe becomes excited and says.
The zhuizi is obeying her hands, strokes Joe's arms. Though is early autumn, it is still a bit hot, a small short gown of Joe's dress. Your skin is very thin, the weight is sighed over with feeling and said.
What, are you?
Hen, hen, weight laugh at odd.
I am no good, you are daughter's body, but I am not.
Two people's speech for the moment, they remembered the weight is in that moist small clinic at the same time, expression of the agony.
The weight has sent out gentle sobing.
Joe, after you have left, who can also think highly of me, sometimes, I really hate mother, I never saw her, but born in me, baked her inglorious seal on one's body. Joe, why my destiny is so bitter.
What a own friend of comfort Joe does not know, she is only the long hair who fondles the weight gently with hands. The weight seldom sheds tears, this Joe knows. Two girls are embracing, Joe has cried too. Joe embraces the weight tightly, the weight is stuck with her durable breast, only in this way it seems, could give the zhuizi comfort. Joe has kissed the hair of the weight gently, everything will be all right, believe me.
Who else can love I, I want people come love either, weight afford to hate.
Nobody loves you, is afraid something, have me! Joe says.
Two people have shed the tears for a moment quietly. Later, weight sit, stand up, moonlight such as water, in being dim, she see Joe bright body further more graceful under to shine upon moonlight.
Joe, you are very beautiful, the weight is not said. Not knowing this pure and noble body, who enjoys blissfully, she strokes Joe's health gently with hands. Joe feels excited, she feels what the cells that has all over are condensed in the weight is on hand, one kind relaxes satisfied feeling to upload from the hands of the weight on her body.
In the darkness, but weight cry bitterly,
Joe, is this kind of feeling, do you know? That man, rape my man, that give me this kind of feeling!
Joe falls from the high in the clouds in reality, she has no language for the moment.
After entering university, Joe is separated form weight, however, Joe does not care for the weight when not having, she understands the weight, since the brutal incident happened, the weight gives oneself up as hopeless. But Joe believes again, the weight has already had immunity to any man, will not be aroused in interest. Joe thinks, the weight and other men can leave, will be never aroused in interest. She does not allow the weight to love any man.
Lie Joe at the dormitory blush scarlet in school, she remember those night, that night of she and weight. Many times, when she lonely, can aftertaste those night. She strokes along one's own body slowly with hands, is calling the name of the weight while feeling.
One day, in library of school, Joe see one let she terrified word extremely suddenly, homosexuality. Joe is as stupefied there as striking by lightning, say on the book, no matter the interest on the sexual love, psychology, emotion and social activity that homosexuality refers to a person, the main target is other people of same sex, such an interest has not been shown out from the behavior of showing of outside. Those, to producing love, sexual desire or having a tender feeling towards with the same sex, persons who are called homosexuality. The silent scene of top superstars in era in Hollywood, Greta from Sweden. ; ; ; It is invaded and harassed that Garbo once felt more for the homosexual identity.
Joe produced a kind of frightened sense deeply to oneself suddenly. Does these and she have a sentimental attachment for the weight deeply alikely? Have like picture, she dislike man, interested in to all woman. Joe is perplexed and the heart is wounded.
Weight during half a year, write with ten letters in succession for Joe continuously, the zhuizi tells Joe, she has fallen in love.
On the first letter, the weight was said, Joe, has not been knowing all the time that still can love oneself, yes, Joe, does not really know! Just that kind of feeling should love, with a boy every day, sell fruits, look at pedestrians, read, I feel till the end of the world. Joe, do you know? How gentle his hand is, his hands reach the inner world that can touch me softly. Joe, unexpectedly I will fall in love with others too.
But? Joe, is this loving?
Second letter, weight say Joe, look for one man love, facing toward you old fashioned and inflexible books those always quickly. He hangs on at my side everyday, I will let him melt soon, well, really have no way! Joe, I have not faced a man like this for a long time. Do you say, have I really fallen in love with him? Just, the way of our emotion is a bit rugged now, Joe, this blames me, perhaps look like this kind of people of mine, should not get the love! Why your letter in reply say nothing about this question of mine. A bad fellow of yours, envy me.
From receive, behind the letter, have no class, Joe make oneself bored to in dormitory, cover with the higher authority with quilt, remain silent with everyone.
Joe is in this kind of state. The love question of the weight, she is avoiding being frightened again, can not getting one's own true idea more and more. She wants to let the weight be happy, fears again the weight really falls into a man. The man, for the man, are there still few hardships that the weight is eaten?
A familiar traditional Chinese medicine flavor has been bored in from her nose, wheel in her brain for a long time, can not get rid of. That is traditional Chinese medicine that a weight has been drunk, that summer, how many times was she once to carry that bowl of wicked decoctions of medicinal ingredients in front of the weight, saw her painful drinking down, or vomited in front of the bed suddenly. Without that time, the weight, perhaps as her, in the campus of the university, accept schoolboys and admire the sight admired, but not sell fruits on the lane mouth while studying. Certainly, all these are the way that herself chose, no one is strange.
But, is this her true idea?
In this school, how outstanding though Joe's good looks can not be said, still some boys write the love letter!, court her, but Joe but one's own parcel is tight. No one see heart of her, she more and more reticent, though she restrained in these kind, in boys' view, a little more attractive. Just, Joe can't be close to any man, so long as smell that kind of taste that can not say on one's body of theirs, she has a kind of strong sick sense. She knows such disagreeable source.
Qiao house of houses are crowded, she and elder brothers crowd in an one-storey house. Slightly bigger, she go weight house live in previous night, compared with elder brother being bad smell to coax coaxing the place smell, she prefers the weight taste very sweetly on one's body, the every minute when like staying with weight. But in mother's view, such a thing dreadful monsters general, mother refuse she and contact of weight.
Joe clear to remember 13 that year such as year old such as she, were woken by a burst of sounds suddenly at midnight. She hear neighbor in bed eldest brother send out strange sound, grit one's teeth, puff and blow, puff and blow, seem, breathe heavily thick air, what she worried has called it, brother, brother. The eldest brother has not responded, just no longer moan. The next day, she helped mothers to wash the clothes, the eldest brother ha to play and throw to her and embrace the clothes, then and the friend has played. Joe has just spread the clothes out, smell taste of a whiff of smelling of urine, that is sent out on the sheet given from the elder brother to her, Joe sees, white slice that one hardens is like a clown making up on the sheet, making the hollow laugh of mouth to her. Joe puts the sheet on the nose to smell, taste is just spread from here out. She has remembered the content going to school in physiological hygiene, what is unexpected insight, throw away the sheet at once, go on one side and vomit.
From then on, Joe hated smelling the stink that boy's body was sent out, that kind of taste further, make her sick. Have one man exceed two meters from her, she has that kind to react, sick agony. As to she this, weight make fun of her straight.
In time when the grandmother had just passed away, she persuaded mothers to keep with the weight company, two girls often crowd together, hear girl's characterized fragrance on one's body of the weight, let her heart full of unspeakable happiness.
The weight, after I have left, what will you do alone? This leaves the family to study for the first night, she is with weight, lie in bed seeing the moon in the sky.
I want to sell fruits too, the weight is said.
Really? You are not afraid of toil.
I'm afraid something, I hope to experience it, how the grandmother is to bring me up, the weight is said faintly.
Joe, thank you, weight caught her hands suddenly.
What is thanked! Joe is a bit shy, smoke one's own hands with strength.
Thank you for never disliking and avoiding me, really, sometimes I dislike and avoid oneself.
Don't say so, the fool, only I know, how good you are, Joe becomes excited and says.
The zhuizi is obeying her hands, strokes Joe's arms. Though is early autumn, it is still a bit hot, a small short gown of Joe's dress. Your skin is very thin, the weight is sighed over with feeling and said.
What, are you?
Hen, hen, weight laugh at odd.
I am no good, you are daughter's body, but I am not.
Two people's speech for the moment, they remembered the weight is in that moist small clinic at the same time, expression of the agony.
The weight has sent out gentle sobing.
Joe, after you have left, who can also think highly of me, sometimes, I really hate mother, I never saw her, but born in me, baked her inglorious seal on one's body. Joe, why my destiny is so bitter.
What a own friend of comfort Joe does not know, she is only the long hair who fondles the weight gently with hands. The weight seldom sheds tears, this Joe knows. Two girls are embracing, Joe has cried too. Joe embraces the weight tightly, the weight is stuck with her durable breast, only in this way it seems, could give the zhuizi comfort. Joe has kissed the hair of the weight gently, everything will be all right, believe me.
Who else can love I, I want people come love either, weight afford to hate.
Nobody loves you, is afraid something, have me! Joe says.
Two people have shed the tears for a moment quietly. Later, weight sit, stand up, moonlight such as water, in being dim, she see Joe bright body further more graceful under to shine upon moonlight.
Joe, you are very beautiful, the weight is not said. Not knowing this pure and noble body, who enjoys blissfully, she strokes Joe's health gently with hands. Joe feels excited, she feels what the cells that has all over are condensed in the weight is on hand, one kind relaxes satisfied feeling to upload from the hands of the weight on her body.
In the darkness, but weight cry bitterly,
Joe, is this kind of feeling, do you know? That man, rape my man, that give me this kind of feeling!
Joe falls from the high in the clouds in reality, she has no language for the moment.
After entering university, Joe is separated form weight, however, Joe does not care for the weight when not having, she understands the weight, since the brutal incident happened, the weight gives oneself up as hopeless. But Joe believes again, the weight has already had immunity to any man, will not be aroused in interest. Joe thinks, the weight and other men can leave, will be never aroused in interest. She does not allow the weight to love any man.
Lie Joe at the dormitory blush scarlet in school, she remember those night, that night of she and weight. Many times, when she lonely, can aftertaste those night. She strokes along one's own body slowly with hands, is calling the name of the weight while feeling.
One day, in library of school, Joe see one let she terrified word extremely suddenly, homosexuality. Joe is as stupefied there as striking by lightning, say on the book, no matter the interest on the sexual love, psychology, emotion and social activity that homosexuality refers to a person, the main target is other people of same sex, such an interest has not been shown out from the behavior of showing of outside. Those, to producing love, sexual desire or having a tender feeling towards with the same sex, persons who are called homosexuality. The silent scene of top superstars in era in Hollywood, Greta from Sweden. ; ; ; It is invaded and harassed that Garbo once felt more for the homosexual identity.
Joe produced a kind of frightened sense deeply to oneself suddenly. Does these and she have a sentimental attachment for the weight deeply alikely? Have like picture, she dislike man, interested in to all woman. Joe is perplexed and the heart is wounded.
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Chapter four
Exceed everybody's expectation, unexpectedly the living weight has been chosen with grandmother's the same job in a life alone, sell fruits on the lane mouth. A lot of people are strange, gluttonous and lazy girl as such as she, how could stand exposing to the weather, so arduous one seeks living. Moreover, her reputation has been already bad, the woman with bad reputation is like a pile of apples rotting, it is uncomfortable to throw anywhere away, a lot of people hope she leaves, leaves and has a bumper harvest the lane, like her mother, far walk, there is no news, is heedless of consequences.
But just the opposite, weight mouth with a swagger to sell for fruit in lane not merely, unexpectedly the business is good, this benefits from her youthful appearance and complicated life experience. Transient person to show one tender slightly first, beautiful face attract, low to get clothing indistinct breast lead expression in one's eyes of living in shortly afterwards, so, person that bought the fruit comes, men exceed women, the young and the middle aged exceed for old age, fruit stall of weight, in to turn into another concept also after dinner people: One woman shameless, man surface does not consider worth doing, its solid to itch difficult pronoun that able to bear.
Day is like this one day and one day pass, from spring to summer, from autumn to winter. The weight was being sold for the third year of the fruit at last, welcomed one's own real love.
Come philtrum to buy fruit have one guy, initial, weight take notice of no at all.
That day, people that come and go little, weight wave one comfortable posture, she at the little campstool pairs of slender both legs shelf to wear jeans, a " check to the lover of the lady of special fields lying fallow in rotation " is put on the leg. The weight whats different from others is, she likes reading, in selling the day of the fruit, she think many book, novel, poem, even has philosophy.
One red naked human body, how fragily it is, how fragily, how getting pitifully! A little too deficient, a little incomplete. What the weight is read to Connie is from the speech, swarmed and laughs at from the corner of the mouth, she scorns to take even a glance at the speech of the human body about Connie. The weight dislikes the human body, yes, she or even detesting, this has some relations with her own experience.
She has seen Pascal's a word, the human body is inconceivable, soul is more inconceivable, the most inconceivable one is that the human body can be conbined with soul together. Read this the same sentence, first the weight is perplexed, the combination of human body and soul, she does not have, never, she has disliked the human body, does not have soul, though her human body is so wonderful now, people to taste it all aftertaste its American. It is slim and graceful and elegant, sparkling and crystal-clear, the lines are smooth, strong and energetic, full of the youthful seal from head to foot all over. However, it let the weight feel self-humiliation, so panic, so, she teaches the human body at will like pollen, each time, when every different person leaves away, she always washes for several hours carefully, gently, gentle, abhor actually.
Who knows, the beautiful woman of this appearance, her youth has already died, died when she is 15 years old.
Chen HaoDong appeared at this time. He is the courtesy first to ask one sentence, how much is the apple?
The weight has not been taken notice of, she just immerses oneself in reading. Her unusual person who sells the fruit is the same, see the greeting that customers will be extremely hospitable, her attitude is to refuse nobody, make the best of things.
HaoDong Chen ask one whether see her respond, oneself start and begin to select again.
Weight since lifting on the books, eyes of her move, because she see one hand sight.
That is a pair of slender and pale hands, five fingers are long and sharp, under shining upon in sunshine, his nail presents the healthy one ruddily, has blood vessel in disorder to shoulder, this is a pair of male hands.
Memory is the only means to realize time, secrets of life are all in time. Truth, remembering, illusion, hope, nihility and forgetting, the heart of the weight ached suddenly, a silk silk slight chill in the air crawls into her heart. At night several years ago, a deep and eternal scene was welled up into the heart clearly, a pair of ice-cold hands, swim and go between her skin like snake. It is cool like water, clear like the sunshine. Countless time disappear in the darkness without bottom, just that dark abyss, it is the heart of the weight. Then, she answers one sentence dimly, shoulders at will.
The zhuizi resumes and sees a pair of bright eyes, has felt relieved in her heart.
Have such one people of eye can what bad thing does it make, weight shallow to laugh at while being right.
One this smile, engage in profiteering old great the east attract, weight smile, give not her own in fact, but in old great east eyes, this smile is given to him.
Then, he looks this girl in the front up and down conscientiously, plump and round, melancholy that a pair of eyes are filled with, but there is cynical smile on her corner of the mouth.
Obscure Chen HaoDong graduating from university in one, was assigned in a public institution in the county town half a year ago, it is just still a little staff member now, his father is a deputy bureau director of some unit, mother has done and retired due to illness. The only elder sister Chen HaoRan married one year ago, the brother-in-law is in the Department of Communications of the county, have already mixed to the small section chief now. So, the family of the east of Chen Hao should be more illustrious in this town of small county, though have few real powers, it is not also an ordinary common people's family.
Today, it is the time to take advantage of Zhou Wei in the east to be great, go to elder sister's home to have a look at her. Great and pregnant for nine months, expected date of childbirth has already passed, but the stomach has no sound slowly. Mother is urging him to be visited greatly, advice and say, buy some fruits, your elder sister likes eating.
Chen HaoDong is looking at the zhuizi, a beautiful fruit girl carefully. He think select a big bag of apples conveniently, weight absent-minded title secretly in heart, 5 kilograms. Chen HaoDong acts personally and sees suddenly, reveals that is less than 4.5 kilograms on the balance.
He has smiled, sells fruits as you do, does not sell running.
It doesn't matter, the weight is answered touching on lightly.
This makes Chen HaoDong shocked, this girl is a little interesting, rather complicated. He doubt with a stomach steps up the motorcycle, has looked at the zhuizi later, but it happened that see the weight looks at him, a pair of eyes have filled smile not considered worth doing with. Move in the old great east heart, turn round and go at once. Follow with one's eyes he leave away, weight smile sound of happening at once, she read people much, know the man hide anything in the eyes already.
Every other day, Chen HaoDong has come again after coming off duty, unlike this, he holds a book in the hand this time, pretend to be careless, show, get in front of weight, weight rare glimpse title, " recollect time passes like flowing water ".
Has not seen, Chen HaoDong ask, the zhuizi shakes the head, it is said.
Lend, show you then, but want, lend, show me by that copy for last time you, great east say.
That copy bring, come over, weight say true, she any book does not bring today.
Oh, then tomorrow, you will read this one first, I will come to take that tomorrow, Chen HaoDong turns round to leave.
Weight flash big eyes, she grasp a bit by now, man to trick that she resort to cheap undisguised flattery, mostly invite her to have a meal, buy the clothes for her, lends to the person for her to read of book like this kind, it is the first. The weight has excitement to him.
Titter in the great east heart too, master Qian Zhongshu says, borrows the beginning that the book is the love, try, accurate and inaccurate.
People divide two kinds, a kind of person has past events, a kind of person does not have past event. People to have past event meaningful in eyes, great east think, the weight is belonging to the latter. After working, because of his one's own condition, software and hardware all combine with, so, some enthusiastic colleagues have looked for the girlfriend for him for a long time. However, great not to like some simple girls in the east, that kind will only ask the girl of some inmature questions, in his view stupid can't and. However, the complicated emotion that this fruit girl interweaved with a kind of melancholy and happiness has attracted him, though, he has only met her.
Exceed everybody's expectation, unexpectedly the living weight has been chosen with grandmother's the same job in a life alone, sell fruits on the lane mouth. A lot of people are strange, gluttonous and lazy girl as such as she, how could stand exposing to the weather, so arduous one seeks living. Moreover, her reputation has been already bad, the woman with bad reputation is like a pile of apples rotting, it is uncomfortable to throw anywhere away, a lot of people hope she leaves, leaves and has a bumper harvest the lane, like her mother, far walk, there is no news, is heedless of consequences.
But just the opposite, weight mouth with a swagger to sell for fruit in lane not merely, unexpectedly the business is good, this benefits from her youthful appearance and complicated life experience. Transient person to show one tender slightly first, beautiful face attract, low to get clothing indistinct breast lead expression in one's eyes of living in shortly afterwards, so, person that bought the fruit comes, men exceed women, the young and the middle aged exceed for old age, fruit stall of weight, in to turn into another concept also after dinner people: One woman shameless, man surface does not consider worth doing, its solid to itch difficult pronoun that able to bear.
Day is like this one day and one day pass, from spring to summer, from autumn to winter. The weight was being sold for the third year of the fruit at last, welcomed one's own real love.
Come philtrum to buy fruit have one guy, initial, weight take notice of no at all.
That day, people that come and go little, weight wave one comfortable posture, she at the little campstool pairs of slender both legs shelf to wear jeans, a " check to the lover of the lady of special fields lying fallow in rotation " is put on the leg. The weight whats different from others is, she likes reading, in selling the day of the fruit, she think many book, novel, poem, even has philosophy.
One red naked human body, how fragily it is, how fragily, how getting pitifully! A little too deficient, a little incomplete. What the weight is read to Connie is from the speech, swarmed and laughs at from the corner of the mouth, she scorns to take even a glance at the speech of the human body about Connie. The weight dislikes the human body, yes, she or even detesting, this has some relations with her own experience.
She has seen Pascal's a word, the human body is inconceivable, soul is more inconceivable, the most inconceivable one is that the human body can be conbined with soul together. Read this the same sentence, first the weight is perplexed, the combination of human body and soul, she does not have, never, she has disliked the human body, does not have soul, though her human body is so wonderful now, people to taste it all aftertaste its American. It is slim and graceful and elegant, sparkling and crystal-clear, the lines are smooth, strong and energetic, full of the youthful seal from head to foot all over. However, it let the weight feel self-humiliation, so panic, so, she teaches the human body at will like pollen, each time, when every different person leaves away, she always washes for several hours carefully, gently, gentle, abhor actually.
Who knows, the beautiful woman of this appearance, her youth has already died, died when she is 15 years old.
Chen HaoDong appeared at this time. He is the courtesy first to ask one sentence, how much is the apple?
The weight has not been taken notice of, she just immerses oneself in reading. Her unusual person who sells the fruit is the same, see the greeting that customers will be extremely hospitable, her attitude is to refuse nobody, make the best of things.
HaoDong Chen ask one whether see her respond, oneself start and begin to select again.
Weight since lifting on the books, eyes of her move, because she see one hand sight.
That is a pair of slender and pale hands, five fingers are long and sharp, under shining upon in sunshine, his nail presents the healthy one ruddily, has blood vessel in disorder to shoulder, this is a pair of male hands.
Memory is the only means to realize time, secrets of life are all in time. Truth, remembering, illusion, hope, nihility and forgetting, the heart of the weight ached suddenly, a silk silk slight chill in the air crawls into her heart. At night several years ago, a deep and eternal scene was welled up into the heart clearly, a pair of ice-cold hands, swim and go between her skin like snake. It is cool like water, clear like the sunshine. Countless time disappear in the darkness without bottom, just that dark abyss, it is the heart of the weight. Then, she answers one sentence dimly, shoulders at will.
The zhuizi resumes and sees a pair of bright eyes, has felt relieved in her heart.
Have such one people of eye can what bad thing does it make, weight shallow to laugh at while being right.
One this smile, engage in profiteering old great the east attract, weight smile, give not her own in fact, but in old great east eyes, this smile is given to him.
Then, he looks this girl in the front up and down conscientiously, plump and round, melancholy that a pair of eyes are filled with, but there is cynical smile on her corner of the mouth.
Obscure Chen HaoDong graduating from university in one, was assigned in a public institution in the county town half a year ago, it is just still a little staff member now, his father is a deputy bureau director of some unit, mother has done and retired due to illness. The only elder sister Chen HaoRan married one year ago, the brother-in-law is in the Department of Communications of the county, have already mixed to the small section chief now. So, the family of the east of Chen Hao should be more illustrious in this town of small county, though have few real powers, it is not also an ordinary common people's family.
Today, it is the time to take advantage of Zhou Wei in the east to be great, go to elder sister's home to have a look at her. Great and pregnant for nine months, expected date of childbirth has already passed, but the stomach has no sound slowly. Mother is urging him to be visited greatly, advice and say, buy some fruits, your elder sister likes eating.
Chen HaoDong is looking at the zhuizi, a beautiful fruit girl carefully. He think select a big bag of apples conveniently, weight absent-minded title secretly in heart, 5 kilograms. Chen HaoDong acts personally and sees suddenly, reveals that is less than 4.5 kilograms on the balance.
He has smiled, sells fruits as you do, does not sell running.
It doesn't matter, the weight is answered touching on lightly.
This makes Chen HaoDong shocked, this girl is a little interesting, rather complicated. He doubt with a stomach steps up the motorcycle, has looked at the zhuizi later, but it happened that see the weight looks at him, a pair of eyes have filled smile not considered worth doing with. Move in the old great east heart, turn round and go at once. Follow with one's eyes he leave away, weight smile sound of happening at once, she read people much, know the man hide anything in the eyes already.
Every other day, Chen HaoDong has come again after coming off duty, unlike this, he holds a book in the hand this time, pretend to be careless, show, get in front of weight, weight rare glimpse title, " recollect time passes like flowing water ".
Has not seen, Chen HaoDong ask, the zhuizi shakes the head, it is said.
Lend, show you then, but want, lend, show me by that copy for last time you, great east say.
That copy bring, come over, weight say true, she any book does not bring today.
Oh, then tomorrow, you will read this one first, I will come to take that tomorrow, Chen HaoDong turns round to leave.
Weight flash big eyes, she grasp a bit by now, man to trick that she resort to cheap undisguised flattery, mostly invite her to have a meal, buy the clothes for her, lends to the person for her to read of book like this kind, it is the first. The weight has excitement to him.
Titter in the great east heart too, master Qian Zhongshu says, borrows the beginning that the book is the love, try, accurate and inaccurate.
People divide two kinds, a kind of person has past events, a kind of person does not have past event. People to have past event meaningful in eyes, great east think, the weight is belonging to the latter. After working, because of his one's own condition, software and hardware all combine with, so, some enthusiastic colleagues have looked for the girlfriend for him for a long time. However, great not to like some simple girls in the east, that kind will only ask the girl of some inmature questions, in his view stupid can't and. However, the complicated emotion that this fruit girl interweaved with a kind of melancholy and happiness has attracted him, though, he has only met her.
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Red apple lost
Chapter three
Make friends with such a person of the weight, no matter the reputation or school grade, be involved by some more or less. Of good character and fine scholarship Joe decline roll in college entrance examination for first year, admit to a normal school training until second year always.
Joe goes out and goes to school, only leaving the weight will no love will stop in a person's world, change the work ceaselessly, spend the youth freely ceaselessly.
As to the weight, Joe's heart has a kind of complicatedness that can not say. From childhood, the friendship of she and weight is inconceivable in others' eyes, they are totally two different world persons. Mother of weight reputation good, it is said, give birth to weight see trace, she is brought up all alone by the grandmother. Up to now, who is father of weight everybody know lane person of son keep someone at a respectful distance all them either. Joe's parents are the workers of textile mill of county town, the honest good household, she has two elder brothers, to she being to fond of, have, add too. In such a family, Joe grows into a sensible girl day by day.
While studying in the primary school, though she lives with the weight together in a lane, a lane very beginning, a lane end, know too, but not on good terms, mother has educated her not to play with weight for a long time. Until one day, she witnesses the weight is bullied by a group of boys on the way of leaving school. Those children are scolding the zhuizi " wild kind " ,It wash tear come over the schoolbags that go forward her,it have book of her spread full. Little weight say no word, resists desperately, the boy is tearing her pigtail, disarray her hair, and tear her colored short gown alone, drag all buttons. The weight grits one's teeth, it is all tears to meet the eye on every side, but does not fall down, she is to saying no word after all to the beginning. The boys have left, the weight tidies up the books while shedding tears.
Joe picks up a textbook silently, passes in the weight hands squating on the ground.
The weight lifts the head, Joe sees the tear on her face was dripped and fallen down at last, but facing toward Joe and smile in the labial angle.
Joe why does it know either, she with weight house to go her tail.
How small house simple and crude is that, low house of only two wave the shabby furniture, two little beds are crowded by the honeycomb briquette stove cooking, what is curled up all the year round smoke and have pitch-black in the room. A small desk, is probably a desk of the weight, some books of the weight are being put.
Your dead girl, fight with people, and then the sound of hitting the person, Joe sees the grandmother of the weight is scolding the zhuizi with the hair that hands are dragging her with strength. The handle of the weight was originally in a mess, now, all was wrapped on the face.
The zhuizi neither argues, nor dodges, leaves the grandmother to curse and beat.
The schoolbag is rotten too, how much is a schoolbag, how many goods I want to unload to afford a schoolbag for you, do evil!
It would be better not to want you originally, really did evil, the grandmother cried bitterly.
Joe has heard, the grandmother of the weight loads and unloads the goods for some shops of the street, those are that masters can work, a woman over 60 years old of hers wants to do too. So, the grandmother in Joe's eyes is a crooked waist now, the whole face is the old woman fiercely of wrinkles.
Joe runs in from the courtyard corner, stop the grandmother, don't scold her, she has been just hit.
Joe draws the sleeves of the weight, a lot of red scars tinily are on the small thin arms of the weight, look like little insects wriggling. The grandmother has stayed for a moment, will not hit either without scolding, but has not spoken, she signed very heavily, turn round to go.
But the feeling not leading Joe of the weight, white Joe does not allow you to manage at one glance.
Joe understand heart of weight later, give somebody grandmother to unload goods to often let people bully too in street, they do it in this way, only want to drive away the grandmother, many a person will divide one more one's share money soon after all, moreover, the grandmother is old, exert oneself little.
Sympathize with, took pity on the tearful eyes of the weight have moved Joe, she can not say clearly either, anyway, from that time, Joe with weight become good friend, weight because question that come from, often bullied, tease. She becomes old slowly, she becomes sensitive and introversive, it is very cowardly sometimes. Though in front of Joe, she remains the girl of a piece of sunshine.
Childhood in weight, juvenile period in disgrace, scolding, hitting, spending unending.
A late autumn of last in junior middle school for them, a thing happened.
Several li from school to home, at that time, Joe had a half new bicycle, every day, she weight go to school year.
School have one stop class late, leave school already very late actually, happen, stop, arrange some class affair as vice Joe of monitor teacher will it be Thursday. Actually the weight told Joe, had not waited for her today, should go home earlier. Can stand to beg repeatedly Joe, weight know, Joe is timid, afraid of most that walks outside at night, have to be waiting for Joe aside all the time.
As Joe finished everything at last, it has been already completely dark. Two people have turned in the lane from main road talking and laughing. Family of Joe reach, weight get home a moment later on foot.
Already black, I send the car to you, Joe says.
No, you go home quickly, don't let aunties see us together, the weight is said, Joe's mother always objects to their friendship.
You oneself careful then, the first several days, it is said someone rob inside, whom Joe worried about see pitch-dark lane.
What afraid, a poor student of mine, who robs me to do? The weight trots while smiling.
Joe follows the brisk shade of the weight with one's eyes and disappears during night, indistinct and a bit anxious in the heart.
Weight moan school prevailing Guo Fucheng " whether I go away quietly " very, the street lamp has been out of order for nearly one week, still nobody comes to repair. Some pay an old sore in the weight heart, it has been already very cool, step on the dead leaf of October under her foot, Shuo Shuo banged, though walked familiar distance while as a child, the light a kick of some deep a kick now. Not bad, get home soon, weight think.
Way go not familiar, today some timidity more for no reason.
Suddenly, the sound that a sound of extremely slight leaves were stepped on was from coming behind. The weight has not found time to have arms from stretching over behind extremely fast later yet, fatal position bunches of neck to live in weight, weight find time, call first " Ah " only ,Feel that covers her mouth tightly, let her speak with a hand. The weight struggles with strength, she has already seen the dark yellow light of a silk is distributed out from the light courtyard of one's own home.
Grandmother, grandmother, the weight wants to call, but no sound is sent out finally.
The weight is dragged to a car, her tricks are all trussed up, fills in the mouth in a towel, covered with black cloth eyes. One stalwart effective man health connect of wrench movement with in her, set her free, at train. The weight is not familiar with car, the seat was put very big after she only felt, he has driven out of the car the lane son fast, sail towards the outskirts.
The car is bad-tempered but while stopping, the thing that will happen of the weight next of already.
There is taste of green grass at pitch-dark night, probably reach the field. The man has stopped the car, has gone out the light, has crawled over in the driver's cabin arranged in the past. From close, weight hear he big and heavy breath, she calm from initial struck with panic reply, one listen to it destiny sense to have life drag urgent she. Thing of men and women, play little in neighbour and others to she bully, she has been already the awareness to some extent, say, this is a question at heart with others'.
The man has kissed her first, unexpectedly the weight has smelt a whiff of fresh toothpaste taste, he trembles to take off the clothes of the weight in the darkness, strokes her gently. The weight is felt, that is a pair of ice-cold and slender fingers.
And then the thing happening is very distinct. The weight has been resisted for several times slightly, lose virginity in pain, very painful, really very painful. When the man will enter her body for the first time, she can't help giving out the groan sound, the man has stopped for a while slightly, wander up and down outside her body gently. Among darkness and pain, weight towel of mouth does not know when to fall down, however, she has not called, she is very sober in the whole course, though besides pain or pain.
After the first end, the man takes off all clothes on the body, the weight shivers, her young girl's body totally uncovers, but sharp, the warm health of her only quilt has been held tightly, it is that man. Unexpectedly the weight is shot in his chest like a fawn, his body is thin and warm, let the weight realize suddenly, was this named brutally?
The man has done it three times altogether. He kiss all over health of her, kiss get she in the mouth, weight well up, blow, feel in the heart once, feeling not saying out. Fragrant thinly on the man's body, the weight does not understand men are unexpectedly fragrant too on one's body. This kind of doubt until the man has put on the clothes for her, and has gripped on her ear gently.
When go back, the man drives the car quickly, has placed her on the lane son outside. It is the night, everything is quiet, only the worm sends out the low-spirited song in several autumns. The man has lightened restrictions on her.
After the weight comes down, the man leaves turning on the car hopeless dust, is probably afraid she sees license number, even car light is not bright.
Weight walk haltingly, take several steps, feel lower part of the body to be strange to ache, she dress thin to move during night. Consciousness come back, get body, weight clear what does it take place on one's body in oneself finally, she has not cried. The zhuizi pushes the door open gently, sees that under pale yellow light, the grandmother who selects the fruit sits.
Grandmother's curses at her that hear the weight, is only so late not to belong to the family. She has not taken notice of the grandmother's good scolding, has got on the small one's own bed straight. The grandmother scolds she end and gives her a bowl of rice, the egg, are emitting the fragrance of assailing the nostrils, but the weight only wants to vomit.
After the grandmother is fast asleep, she take off clothes slowly, open flashlight, see one's own leg clearly, pale underbelly impression red all, the trace is printed on her body like clown, in the heart. Weight comes on the courtyard, has made a basin of water, is washing the body exerting all one's effort, at last, she sent out the sob constrained.
Pain, pain of health, pain of soul, this wild end of kind, weight squat on the ground, cry bitterly silently.
The next day, Joe visited zhuizi calling in sick hurriedly after leaving school. The grandmother is not at home, she sees good friend shows the cured and yellow face from the broken quilt. Strange at yesterday man attentively, unexpectedly initiated high fever today.
No matter what Joe talks about, the weight just sheds tears.
Joe has realized the severity of the problem slowly.
She is at the time of clear this in the weight is told gently, Joe is stupefied, she is helpless and without resources, wonder what is said.
Blame me, blame me, the weight, it is all my fault, please hit me, she holds the weight and cries bitterly finally.
Joe has cried for whole night after going back, she regretted, why not allow the weight to go home early that day, blame oneself. Pitiful weight, Joe is crying, is friend's regret, repents for oneself.
Later, weight change, she and boy flirt, sneer at sense to have to a others' one at all shame, she has given oneself up as hopeless completely. Qiao Xin aches, only she knows the degeneration of the so-called weight is how to develop in the ground step by step.
But for me, all these will not happen, the weight, forgive me, Joe cries so that the whole face is the tears.
I will protect you carefully afterwards! Don't hate me, weight, Joe continues saying.
The idiot, all these are lives, no one is strange, at this moment, already the weight that an old head on young shoulders has smiled while smoking.
Chapter three
Make friends with such a person of the weight, no matter the reputation or school grade, be involved by some more or less. Of good character and fine scholarship Joe decline roll in college entrance examination for first year, admit to a normal school training until second year always.
Joe goes out and goes to school, only leaving the weight will no love will stop in a person's world, change the work ceaselessly, spend the youth freely ceaselessly.
As to the weight, Joe's heart has a kind of complicatedness that can not say. From childhood, the friendship of she and weight is inconceivable in others' eyes, they are totally two different world persons. Mother of weight reputation good, it is said, give birth to weight see trace, she is brought up all alone by the grandmother. Up to now, who is father of weight everybody know lane person of son keep someone at a respectful distance all them either. Joe's parents are the workers of textile mill of county town, the honest good household, she has two elder brothers, to she being to fond of, have, add too. In such a family, Joe grows into a sensible girl day by day.
While studying in the primary school, though she lives with the weight together in a lane, a lane very beginning, a lane end, know too, but not on good terms, mother has educated her not to play with weight for a long time. Until one day, she witnesses the weight is bullied by a group of boys on the way of leaving school. Those children are scolding the zhuizi " wild kind " ,It wash tear come over the schoolbags that go forward her,it have book of her spread full. Little weight say no word, resists desperately, the boy is tearing her pigtail, disarray her hair, and tear her colored short gown alone, drag all buttons. The weight grits one's teeth, it is all tears to meet the eye on every side, but does not fall down, she is to saying no word after all to the beginning. The boys have left, the weight tidies up the books while shedding tears.
Joe picks up a textbook silently, passes in the weight hands squating on the ground.
The weight lifts the head, Joe sees the tear on her face was dripped and fallen down at last, but facing toward Joe and smile in the labial angle.
Joe why does it know either, she with weight house to go her tail.
How small house simple and crude is that, low house of only two wave the shabby furniture, two little beds are crowded by the honeycomb briquette stove cooking, what is curled up all the year round smoke and have pitch-black in the room. A small desk, is probably a desk of the weight, some books of the weight are being put.
Your dead girl, fight with people, and then the sound of hitting the person, Joe sees the grandmother of the weight is scolding the zhuizi with the hair that hands are dragging her with strength. The handle of the weight was originally in a mess, now, all was wrapped on the face.
The zhuizi neither argues, nor dodges, leaves the grandmother to curse and beat.
The schoolbag is rotten too, how much is a schoolbag, how many goods I want to unload to afford a schoolbag for you, do evil!
It would be better not to want you originally, really did evil, the grandmother cried bitterly.
Joe has heard, the grandmother of the weight loads and unloads the goods for some shops of the street, those are that masters can work, a woman over 60 years old of hers wants to do too. So, the grandmother in Joe's eyes is a crooked waist now, the whole face is the old woman fiercely of wrinkles.
Joe runs in from the courtyard corner, stop the grandmother, don't scold her, she has been just hit.
Joe draws the sleeves of the weight, a lot of red scars tinily are on the small thin arms of the weight, look like little insects wriggling. The grandmother has stayed for a moment, will not hit either without scolding, but has not spoken, she signed very heavily, turn round to go.
But the feeling not leading Joe of the weight, white Joe does not allow you to manage at one glance.
Joe understand heart of weight later, give somebody grandmother to unload goods to often let people bully too in street, they do it in this way, only want to drive away the grandmother, many a person will divide one more one's share money soon after all, moreover, the grandmother is old, exert oneself little.
Sympathize with, took pity on the tearful eyes of the weight have moved Joe, she can not say clearly either, anyway, from that time, Joe with weight become good friend, weight because question that come from, often bullied, tease. She becomes old slowly, she becomes sensitive and introversive, it is very cowardly sometimes. Though in front of Joe, she remains the girl of a piece of sunshine.
Childhood in weight, juvenile period in disgrace, scolding, hitting, spending unending.
A late autumn of last in junior middle school for them, a thing happened.
Several li from school to home, at that time, Joe had a half new bicycle, every day, she weight go to school year.
School have one stop class late, leave school already very late actually, happen, stop, arrange some class affair as vice Joe of monitor teacher will it be Thursday. Actually the weight told Joe, had not waited for her today, should go home earlier. Can stand to beg repeatedly Joe, weight know, Joe is timid, afraid of most that walks outside at night, have to be waiting for Joe aside all the time.
As Joe finished everything at last, it has been already completely dark. Two people have turned in the lane from main road talking and laughing. Family of Joe reach, weight get home a moment later on foot.
Already black, I send the car to you, Joe says.
No, you go home quickly, don't let aunties see us together, the weight is said, Joe's mother always objects to their friendship.
You oneself careful then, the first several days, it is said someone rob inside, whom Joe worried about see pitch-dark lane.
What afraid, a poor student of mine, who robs me to do? The weight trots while smiling.
Joe follows the brisk shade of the weight with one's eyes and disappears during night, indistinct and a bit anxious in the heart.
Weight moan school prevailing Guo Fucheng " whether I go away quietly " very, the street lamp has been out of order for nearly one week, still nobody comes to repair. Some pay an old sore in the weight heart, it has been already very cool, step on the dead leaf of October under her foot, Shuo Shuo banged, though walked familiar distance while as a child, the light a kick of some deep a kick now. Not bad, get home soon, weight think.
Way go not familiar, today some timidity more for no reason.
Suddenly, the sound that a sound of extremely slight leaves were stepped on was from coming behind. The weight has not found time to have arms from stretching over behind extremely fast later yet, fatal position bunches of neck to live in weight, weight find time, call first " Ah " only ,Feel that covers her mouth tightly, let her speak with a hand. The weight struggles with strength, she has already seen the dark yellow light of a silk is distributed out from the light courtyard of one's own home.
Grandmother, grandmother, the weight wants to call, but no sound is sent out finally.
The weight is dragged to a car, her tricks are all trussed up, fills in the mouth in a towel, covered with black cloth eyes. One stalwart effective man health connect of wrench movement with in her, set her free, at train. The weight is not familiar with car, the seat was put very big after she only felt, he has driven out of the car the lane son fast, sail towards the outskirts.
The car is bad-tempered but while stopping, the thing that will happen of the weight next of already.
There is taste of green grass at pitch-dark night, probably reach the field. The man has stopped the car, has gone out the light, has crawled over in the driver's cabin arranged in the past. From close, weight hear he big and heavy breath, she calm from initial struck with panic reply, one listen to it destiny sense to have life drag urgent she. Thing of men and women, play little in neighbour and others to she bully, she has been already the awareness to some extent, say, this is a question at heart with others'.
The man has kissed her first, unexpectedly the weight has smelt a whiff of fresh toothpaste taste, he trembles to take off the clothes of the weight in the darkness, strokes her gently. The weight is felt, that is a pair of ice-cold and slender fingers.
And then the thing happening is very distinct. The weight has been resisted for several times slightly, lose virginity in pain, very painful, really very painful. When the man will enter her body for the first time, she can't help giving out the groan sound, the man has stopped for a while slightly, wander up and down outside her body gently. Among darkness and pain, weight towel of mouth does not know when to fall down, however, she has not called, she is very sober in the whole course, though besides pain or pain.
After the first end, the man takes off all clothes on the body, the weight shivers, her young girl's body totally uncovers, but sharp, the warm health of her only quilt has been held tightly, it is that man. Unexpectedly the weight is shot in his chest like a fawn, his body is thin and warm, let the weight realize suddenly, was this named brutally?
The man has done it three times altogether. He kiss all over health of her, kiss get she in the mouth, weight well up, blow, feel in the heart once, feeling not saying out. Fragrant thinly on the man's body, the weight does not understand men are unexpectedly fragrant too on one's body. This kind of doubt until the man has put on the clothes for her, and has gripped on her ear gently.
When go back, the man drives the car quickly, has placed her on the lane son outside. It is the night, everything is quiet, only the worm sends out the low-spirited song in several autumns. The man has lightened restrictions on her.
After the weight comes down, the man leaves turning on the car hopeless dust, is probably afraid she sees license number, even car light is not bright.
Weight walk haltingly, take several steps, feel lower part of the body to be strange to ache, she dress thin to move during night. Consciousness come back, get body, weight clear what does it take place on one's body in oneself finally, she has not cried. The zhuizi pushes the door open gently, sees that under pale yellow light, the grandmother who selects the fruit sits.
Grandmother's curses at her that hear the weight, is only so late not to belong to the family. She has not taken notice of the grandmother's good scolding, has got on the small one's own bed straight. The grandmother scolds she end and gives her a bowl of rice, the egg, are emitting the fragrance of assailing the nostrils, but the weight only wants to vomit.
After the grandmother is fast asleep, she take off clothes slowly, open flashlight, see one's own leg clearly, pale underbelly impression red all, the trace is printed on her body like clown, in the heart. Weight comes on the courtyard, has made a basin of water, is washing the body exerting all one's effort, at last, she sent out the sob constrained.
Pain, pain of health, pain of soul, this wild end of kind, weight squat on the ground, cry bitterly silently.
The next day, Joe visited zhuizi calling in sick hurriedly after leaving school. The grandmother is not at home, she sees good friend shows the cured and yellow face from the broken quilt. Strange at yesterday man attentively, unexpectedly initiated high fever today.
No matter what Joe talks about, the weight just sheds tears.
Joe has realized the severity of the problem slowly.
She is at the time of clear this in the weight is told gently, Joe is stupefied, she is helpless and without resources, wonder what is said.
Blame me, blame me, the weight, it is all my fault, please hit me, she holds the weight and cries bitterly finally.
Joe has cried for whole night after going back, she regretted, why not allow the weight to go home early that day, blame oneself. Pitiful weight, Joe is crying, is friend's regret, repents for oneself.
Later, weight change, she and boy flirt, sneer at sense to have to a others' one at all shame, she has given oneself up as hopeless completely. Qiao Xin aches, only she knows the degeneration of the so-called weight is how to develop in the ground step by step.
But for me, all these will not happen, the weight, forgive me, Joe cries so that the whole face is the tears.
I will protect you carefully afterwards! Don't hate me, weight, Joe continues saying.
The idiot, all these are lives, no one is strange, at this moment, already the weight that an old head on young shoulders has smiled while smoking.
publié par 810girl